Jul 1, 2003

wonderful...my damn cousin from florida is in town with his fiancee' and kid i guess and are staying 10 blocks from me....wonderful. im sure tey'll surprise visit me or something. im not looking forward to that at all.one more reason for my dad's family to make me feel less succesful. my younger cousin is getting married...hell...he atleast has a girl friend. i just found out last night too that dereks wedding is january, ben's wedding is next summer i believe, and pat is engaged. im the last one from the band. am i really that incompatable....no one wants me!!?? i dont get it. what have i done to be alone?

friday is totally gonna suck....i cant stand most of my family...and now i have to be around them along with the one that they make me compete with for acceptance....

i dont need their fucking acceptance...












cause i dont accept them.

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