Dec 12, 2007

ok ..... here we go.....

Well, Ive been thinking and I haven't really been myself for a while and I think I figured it out. See the past 3 years of my life had been my most defining. Between everything I did at the coffee shop and the building and the relationships I had built, Sam and Victoria as well as everyone before this three years...these were the things that let me know that I was me. So when I moved ALL of that was taken away...those three years....gone. As well as my knowledge of who I actually was....

well here i am FINALLY finishing this post to say....FUCK IT. I KNOW who i am....i've just been so preoccupied feeling bad for myself about being away from everyone, that it just seemed easier to whine about myself. well here i am....yeah i left a lot behind, but guess what...i've gained a lot too. i have a job that i enjoy going to, i'm not totally stressed out, i have a bunch of awesome friends and co-workers. i've met someone that really intrigues me and i just know that I'm not gonna fuck things up anymore by feeling sorry for myself. I am moving forward from this point on not worrying about what i've left, just whats ahead. and all that i see ahead is only the best for me.

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3 comments:

chad said...

ah, i didn't know i intrigued you, andy.

...is it cause i dyed my hair black?

Victoria said...

you're starting to sound like you again. :-) it's nice.

katy said...

ha... fuck it... isn't that JASON'S phrase?