What would you say....

...to your past self if you had the chance?
This is a copy from a post i put on myspace over 2 years ago....and i think its a pretty great post. So i wanted to put it here.
In two years i've only added one thing.

1. dont let the people get you down that dont like that you are your own person

2. dont lie

3. stay away from clarissa

4. whatever some girl in athens says to you, its not bad enuff to try to leave the bar at that time in that state and if you still leave...make a left out of the bar, not a right.

5. stay away from the south hill mall, that will eliminate melissa....and a loss of 2 years

6. dude, in 7th grade. do not write that stupid letter.

7. you may want to consider not thinking so much.

8. dont worry, shes just one girl. dont waste your time in your room.

9. you are gonna meet your idol someday. think really hard about what you want to say to him. cause you may slightly regret what you dont say.

10. DUDE, i think that chicken salad has been in the fridge a little bit too long, dont eat it, just throw it away.

11.that chicken wing right there is gonna crack your tooth.

12. listen to your cousin, don't leave the wedding.

13. again, she's just one girl. Drop it.

14. tho very tempting. dont download music and movies. it will ruin alot of music for you.

15. you got away with it many times i know, but its just a greeting card. its not worth it.

16. dont be shy....she likes you.

17. trust me beer is good.

18. breathe, yelling doesnt help.

19. stand up for yourself dumbass!

20. more people care than you realize.

21. you should wait 5 minutes before you leave for kennywood.

22. be better about paying bills

23. i know you need money, but dont get a cash advance on that credit card.

24. yeah, the apartment reminds you of her, but trust me, its a great place, dont leave it.

25. yeah, she is really hot. but you need to hang with your friends too. they are going to move away soon.

26. dont be afraid of feelings. the ones that make fun of them are the ones that are afraid of their feelings.

27. yeah, i know your busy, but dont stop drawing

28. try harder to keep the band together.

29. you should travel more.

30. theres a lot of things you need to experience. dont be afraid.

31. eat some better food

32. dont argue. talk.

33. slow down. i know your car is fast.

34. trust youself

35. youve made a lot of dumb choices and you'll make more....but its all gonna be ok.

*NEW*
36. That building is huge, its going to change you AND your life. Do you want that?

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So about a week ago I came to some realizations and have been trying to put them into words to post. Things keep arising that make things a little more clear so I put off posting so I can re-work what I’ve done. So I haven’t REALLY been slacking on posting its just been a hectic time in the head of me. Hopefully over the next day or so, I can finalize all this stuff and get it posted.

In the mean time check out NoWArkScene Its my newest project with a few friends down here….basically it’s a local music site. It just launched so content is a little low, but there are some big plans.

Enjoy.

Chalk it up to...figures...

So this is really trivial. And maybe thats all it is....or maybe it is another notch in the universe's bed post from screwin me:

So you know how everyone(or maybe just me) has those things that you've had for a really long time. So long that for some reason they become "special" to you; Lucky t-shirt, a ring from a vending machine, teddy bear, ceramic pickle....errr....whatever. Well theres this glass. Just a plain clear glass. It had the VW logo on one side with "San Fransisco 1989" under it in blue. On the other side some emblem with "Spatan Munich" under it also in blue. For some reason I grew to love this glass. Always drank out of it...ALWAYS. When Victoria and I were together I caught her using it a few times....I put a stop to it because of her love of the sound of breaking glass....or so it would seem by the amount of glasses she has broken. :-) But anyways, tonite as i was getting ready to watch Heroes i decided i was thirsty...so i grabbed a "cold brew" tea bag tossed it in water and let it brew...ofcourse in my favorite glass. I had used up all my sugar water so out of laziness i resorted to dumping sugar directly into the iced tea. So in order to dissolve the sugar quickly I stirred vigorously...very vigorously. So vigorously in fact my dear dear glass broke in half. and i mean IN HALF. One half sat on the counter as the other half and the tea contained inside, fell off the counter and shattered at my feet. All the glasses I reached past to grab this one...why? Is it just one more thing that I liked/enjoyed getting taken away from me? Am I over thinking this? Oh well...like I said...chalk it up to...figures.

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So Ive been thinking a little more about the things that are going on around me....

More and more I am feeling very Incidental. Like I'm just an extra in the story of my life. I'm here working and working as things happen around me. I cant seem to stay up to date with everything. I also feel like everything I'm involved with is moving beyond me and I'm not as instrumental in any of it as i used to be. like I'm only involved only in a "who i know" way, not for what i can offer. then i have people out there that i thought could perhaps be a friend(even if just in a small way) that demean me and my abilities....to you i say, "fuck off. i don't need your negativity....you have no clue...cause your life in that sense hasn't even begun...so don't try to even start to tell me a damn thing." Any ways...yeah I'm feeling sorry for myself but honestly, I am just really scared. I have so much hope and desire for what I am doing, that I am spreading myself way to thin...I know this. I just can't stop because I see what needs done. And I want it to happen...I have grown to this point only knowing people that only do a half-assed job, don't see things how they deserve to be seen. I am surrounded by many close-minded people and for some reason for the first time in my life...I am letting them bring me down. This isn't me. And to top it off..I am losing the foundation that I have taken for granted. I'm sorry.